Trying to detach from the madness!

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I always have baby here and ready for visits even though half the time I know he won't show. I want to go back to court prepared for everything. He is missing literally 2 (and sometimes 3) visits out of the 4 per week. I imagine having visits in my home sucks for him and also its not real appealing to have to find a ride or walk. But his choices got him to this place yet he takes NO responsibility. He gets his license back in October so we will see if things change then.

My guess for the no show yesterday was that he was drinking. He was off work so had alot of time on his hands. He knows I am such a detective with the drinking and its right in our paperwork that he is not to drink 12 hours prior to visits. Then again, that is my best guess.

My older kids came home from the long weekend away with their dad. I was so happy to see them and so was baby. We have a busy month coming...2 birthdays (20 and 18) and a high school graduation!