Hey Saffie, thanks for your thoughts. I feel ok about her as I know he didnt love her. But yes, there is a lot to mine through yet. She stole Christmas from me and my birthday and our 10 year anniversary!! Because of working with her and staying with her for longer. I did only tear up for a second and by the time he let go after hugging me, I had taken a deep breath and was smiling again and carried on chatting as though it hadnt happened. He's probably forgotton about it. He texted me just now to see how I was, so continues to be pretty keen!! I had no intentions of contacting him today.
I snooped in his bedroom and the only evidence I found of her was.. boxes of condoms!! Which upset me initially, but then I just felt relieved. He is a sensible guy and I knew he wouldnt have wanted to take any risks with her. Still, not nice hey. I am sure he will be willing to talk to me about these things, he already has shown willing, which suprised me, but I am so glad! I still worry what they got up to in bed...
Hey Dawn.. I need to catch up with you soon, I am just v busy at college! And Hi K! Yes.. the drink thing, well, it was me that fancied a few glasses after my hard week! I'm way too old to be led astray in that way. He did say to me he knows he is drinking too much. I wouldnt say he was alchoholic, or alchohol dependent even, its just a very sociable lifestyle he has gotton into. All his MF's go to the pub and drink pints. Ok, so its a nice country pub with open fires, or a lovely bar by the seaside, but its still involving alchohol. Its a very British thing and he isnt likely to change, but I expect it to lessen off as we get back together. He didnt drink as much (and never at home) when we were together before, so I'm not overly worried.
I'm not overly worried about anything in fact, I know we have things to work through, but the positives and happy times I can see unfolding before me far outweigh any negatives. I couldnt be happier right now! Although I am dying to ask him a tonne of questions and I would like to post here in case it helps others. Like.. why would he write such strange emails with all the personal pronouns missing and was he aware he was doing it!?? But I know I cant ask things of him yet.. have to tread carefully for now.
