Most of the time was fine, fun, and enjoyable... T
The rough patches included a time on Saturday when we're driving back from soccer game and H the idea to stop and eat somewhere, but couldn't decide where, the boys couldn't decide if they were hungry, and I just said, "Not sure if you looked in the fridge when you were home this am, but there is left over Japanese and Sloppy Joe's if you're looking for something easy..." H reacts with a "YOUR MOTHER wants us to eat at home, and that's what we'll do..."
Second rough patch... we're in the car, and S9 is all over the third row seat. I turn around and tell him to sit in one seat, and put his seat belt on. H turns around and says, "It's not illegal to be in the third row seat w/out a seatbelt." WTF? Why wouldn't he WANT him in a seatbelt even IF it was legal? So, he goes silent... I'm laughing and joking with the boys, and I finally say to him, "So are you going to not speak to me/us now because I asked S9 to put a seatbelt on?" (Would have remained silent and pouted before...) H said, "No, no one is talking to me." He then slowly warms up, offering a joke after about three minutes of silence.
Third rough patch... AGAIN, in the car... (Maybe we just shouldn't ride/drive together? LOL) I asked H to drive by where D18 and her fellow seniors "Painted the Dam." He forgets to make the turn, and I tell him that the dam is off of "Alpine Rd.," and did he forget? He said, "OH, and I'm supposed to remember?" I said, "It's ok, I'll just drive by and see it tomorrow am, or on the way to school on Monday." H says, "Arent YOU the martyr?" I said, "I am not a martyr, as I was just telling you not to worry about it, as I thought you didn't realize where it was! I'll just go by another time. No big deal." He swings the car around (screeching), spills my S12's ice cream, mumbles some profanity, and heads to the dam. S's and I walk out to see the dam up close, and when we get back in the car, he's asking all about it, and appears to be back to normal.
OK, now these three items are sprinkled in with MOSTLY good. I took the boys EARLY to their soccer games, offering to let him sleep in on Saturday am since he had not gotten in from working until very late. We laughed and laughed at the soccer game with another couple (my H asking me to help tell stories of funny events in our history...). I made one of his favorite dinners last night. He asked me to watch tv with him... We cleaned out the garage together, and did some lawm stuff together...
The rejection hurts to the core though... I can't get rid of the tears when alone. It's clouding everything.
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
