thank you. it is extremely hard when i really thought the worst was behind us.

i only want to call him. but why? i know not to, i know to let go.

but as the drama wears off, i want my husband back.

im used to him being here now, and of course he did not come home last night.

i know this has to be it, but i dont think either one of us knows how to really say goodbye.

i guess i will see what goes on today.


me: 31
H:29
Son:5
m:8 years in november
t:10 years
first bomb: 10/06
moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08
ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06
d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08
moved home:3/09 out again 5/09