Was in court yesterday for 8 hours and we didn't manage to go in front of the judge; just negotiated in different rooms for ages. The safety order has been adjourned for one month; my H is still under protection order which is good; I feel that I have some protection for myself and my daughter. we have worked out a trial parenting plan which means that he will be putting D7 to bed in the family home one night a week; one night from home time till half seven and a Friday night staying outside the family home returning on Saturday at 6. Its in place for a month and only a trial and because the protection order is in place I am fine with the arrangement. He is nt going to be staying over night in the house. My H turned up at court yesterday with his XWife and D27.......why??????? It seemed completely weird and I became very upset.....I dont understand why he did this. They ignored me of course. The painful thing about all of this is that I love my step daughter.
I am in s much pain; I feel run down and debilitated. I miss my H and my marriage and I feel so alienated from family and friends; I have been deleted. My H seems to have created a scenario where he has everything in his life the way he wants it, including our D7 when he wants her, but I need to be erased (and subsequently the house because I live here).
I have so much grief and loss; I am feeling it at a new level in the last few days.
am starting to think that maybe H hasn't flipped it.......maybe he isn't in crisis.......maybe he knows exactly what he wants. If that is the case he has caused so much destruction. And seems oblivious to it.
I just want peace and I am in grief and turmoil Thanks fr all of your help. I pray every day and I am trusting that God will help all of us, in his own good time.
