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Saw H last week, did not confront, just hinted a bit. I decided that we are separated, so what he does is his business as what I do is mine.

Went to dinner and shared some very intimate feelings, something that we had never done before. One of the things I have learned about myself, is that I have never been able to share my feelings, and this has prevented me from having healthy personal relationships with both friends and H. We also had R talk, mostly about issues from the past that led to the present, and he said he is really glad to have these talks. Not what DB says to do, but for my sitch, it seems to be the right thing. Still don't know how things are going to end up.

When we parted for the evening, we had a very long embrace and we kissed on the lips - something we had not done in a long time! And he said, "I'll see you next week". Little does he know that I have plans every night this week...

Although I still am underneath a blanket of sadness, I am feeling really good about myself.