Hey Lisa, so nice to see you and thankyou, that means alot to me. I guess it was romantic in places, but there were also alot of people with us all weekend, so it was mainly just alot of fun and I cant remember the last time I laughed so much. But then thats something else that I missed, all our extended friends.
Hey K, you are right, I know this is going to be hard, it already is !! So there was an incident Saturday night that highlights it.. he got talking to two pretty girls outside the pub, one that I wierdly worked with last summer and intuitively felt worried about if he ever met her that they would have a connection (she is 32, an Aquarian and left her bf of 10 years, a guy who looks alot like my bf). So I felt very insecure about it and as he was gabbling to me afterwards about what a nice gurl she was (his housemate had already told him about her as he nearly dated her).. I sprang with tears. I couldnt help it, but he was very reassuring and hugged me and said he was just gabbling and wasnt meaning anything by it nd kissed me alot.
He is just a very friendly guy, but of course it highlights the damage that has been done by him leaving me and of course I feel insecure at present, despite how reassuring he has been. So...yes, a rocky road ahead!!
But.. there was no change in him all weekend after this brief incident and he just called me for a chat and to say goodnight. And he said again what a great weekend he had and how lovely it was for me to be there.
Although he never had an A, he DID date someone else for 6-8 months and did leave me, so of course, we need to build trust back up and I do need reassurance. So far he has been pretty good at giving it voluntarily, but I am mindful that I cant expect too much yet, this is going to take time. Lots of time! He needs reassurance too. I told him how attractive and sexy he was and he got very shy and said, oh I really dont think so.. he seems to have a lack of confidence also.
