Go back on your last two or three threads, and see how many times you ask some variation of "why?" and "help me to understand."
You're wasting valuable emotional and intellectual energy on this cheeseless tunnel. There IS no "understanding" the wayward mind, or making sense out of the senseless. If you want to, go to Fit's new thread in the Infidelity forum if you want a glimpse into the wayward woman's mindset, but I'll tell you -- it ain't pretty.
And it really serves no purpose.
You need to focus your energies on doing the things that Hooper has so thoughtfully laid out for you, and stop trying to "figure out" and "temperature check" your wife.
Sorry for the 2x4 on this holiday. I do thank you sincerely for your service to our country, John.