Antlers, words (at least mine) cant describe how much you are helping me and others right now. Thank you for being here but I'm sorry at the same time after reading your sitch. My prayers are with you.
The girls and I had a ball today. Went to the store then the playground and back home for fun in the garden. My oldest saw my wedding band on the counter that I had been wearing up until the day before and asked "Dad why are you not wearing your wedding ring?" I was speechless at first but came up with that I was working in the garden so i took it off. She just shrugged and went along her business. I had gone out with some friends the night before and had taken it off. Something I hadn't done in a long time. If I wasn't working I was always watching the kids so she could or we were doing our weekly date out which over the years had turned into grocery shopping and sometimes a swing though walmart. I know, sad right...one of the larger reasons I am were I am today. My MIL would come over and watch the kids and we would always feel guilty for having her stay with them so we would always just go do the shopping for the week while we didn't have the kids and just go back home to relieve her. Nothing romantic about grocery shopping.
Back to my night out with friends, we ended up at a bar. I don't drink anymore after this all happened but never really drank much anyway but it always bothered the W because she has family members that are alcoholics. Ended up playing pool which I hadn't played it in years and had a blast. Actually did good considering. Lost all three games I played but they were all close. Over all I was doing good until I saw a couple hugging and kissing and all I could think of was how my W and OM are doing that and ended up leaving because of it. It was my first real attempt at GAL'ing and I know that even though it ended on a sour note that it was a good step for me.
