It has been 3 weeks since H and I separated

[ALJ]

Kalni,

I am sorry to hear about your sitch with your H. I hope the two of you can get back together but only if thats what you want to do.

My H calls the kids every other day faithfully. I talk to him also but most of the time I am asking about him or whats going on in his life. If I dont then there is going to be silence on the line. He does not ask about me or what I have been doing lately. I just cant believe how he is so distant and uncaring. It is as though we didnt have a history together and he has erased me out of his life and memory.

I am unemployed right now. My H and I took a severence package from our jobs that we worked at together for 10 years. We worked in the automotive industry and if you watch the news, you know that that industry has gone down the tubes. I plan on going back to school for either Medical Billing and Coding or Medical Administration.

I think the only way that I would relocate was if my H and I worked things out and we recommit to our marriage. I cant see myself moving down south where he is and him treating me like a stranger. I have one cousin down south but other than that, all of my family is up here in NY.

Sometimes I feel so angry with him for leaving us like this. I do love him but how long am I supposed to wait for him to make up his mind about us? He says he fell out of love with me awhile ago so how is he going to fall back in love with me living 14 hours away. Our relationship is in limbo and my heart is on hold for him. I also wonder why he wanted to be separated rather than divorced. I know for sure that I dont want to be divorced but what are his reasons?

My mind does nothing but wonder. Is my H looking for someone else while he is gone? Is he happy with his decision to leave? Why did I choose to ignore the signs that our relationship was in trouble? Why was I so naive'? I guess I will have to wait until he decides that he wants to talk about our relationship. That is the only way I will know the answers to these questions.