total quarter life mlc

[mdoodles]

i normally post under infidelity, but i could have been here all along. u can find my thread, its called he is back, i think.

my h had a total mlc almost 3 years ago. and just when i thought he was coming out of it, just when he came home, just when we opened a new business to get him out of the area of his affair, he is now leaving me again.

telling me of course that this is how he has felt the whole 3 years and i should be moving on and seeing when someone doesnt want me.

so now he is giving up on our business (which of course was funded by our families, mostly mine), and throwing in the towel on our marriage too.

and the ow? i think he is trying to get her back as we speak. i believe he was with her last night (check my post in infidelity).

im totally losing it because i just dont want to go through this anymore.

a year ago he filed for divorce and we never went further than that, we began talking about working it out.

and here i am again.

i dont know how to let go, its not what i ever wanted.

i dont think he will ever be him again.

advice please. thanks.