WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 9

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Thanks SmilesPerson. I didn't feel that it was that good, but that's what's nice about the forum - getting people's perspective from the outside (albeit the journaling/posts are one sided as they are just coming from me, I do try to keep it as unbiased as possible as I am trying to get real feedback to make adjustments.

Anyway, this morning when the boys got up, they went to play downstairs. I got ready and went down to join them. My 3 year old asked if it was a home day today. I said no, they are visiting mommy's place again. My 7 year old said see I told you. My 3 year old started to get upset.

I comforted them both a little with hugs and kisses and then started getting their stuff together. I did text my wife to let her know that they were up (it's part of our agreement so she knows when she can come get them). She responded right away that she would get ready and be right over.

I did ask the boys again what toys they wanted to take over. My 7 year old selected a couple of things and my 3 year old said nothing, he wanted to keep everything at home. I did talk in into taking a box of lego's. I also asked about a batman toy that they got 2 of. They said no, they wanted to keep it home.

When my wife came to pick them up, I really stuck (sorry no pun intended Stuck808) my foot in my mouth as I said - Hey, that's a familiar sight. My 7 year old picked up on it right away, as I'm sure my wife did, as he said "Mommy didn't you wear those clothes yesterday?". She said "Yes it is, I was in a hurry to get ready this morning" She was wearing the same outfit that she wore to the party yesterday, which was the same as what she wore to the baseball game on Weds. Since she gained all the weight, there isn't much clothes that she has that still fits. She said that she waiting to lose the weight before buying new clothes.

And before anyone asks, NO - I do not think she was out with someone else and stayed at their place. I can not be 100% sure, but do not believe there is someone else, at least not right now.

When she saw what she the boys was taking, I could tell she was not happy. She asked my 7 year old about taking one of the Batman toys. He said, he and his brother talked about and decided they wanted to keep them both at home. My wife just looked at me and I shrugged. I said I had tried to get them to agree last nite as well.

She started telling me about her night. After she got back to her apartment after the B'day party, she said she rested. Then the bookcase that she ordered had arrived so she spent most of last nite putting it together and getting an anti-tip strap installed on it. She said she didn't get to bed till 11:30 as she wound up eating the left over tomato pie for dinner at 9:00 and it gave her heartburn so she couldn't lay down (pretty common when she eats tomato sauce). I just said - "Oh, that sucks" and left it at that.

Then I gave my boys hugs and kisses goodbye. When they were in her truck, they asked for extra ones so I went out and gave it to them. She then waved goodbye, as did the boys as she left. I was very sad.

I did go to church. Then I went to the small group session but I was the only one there. Guess everyone went away for the weekend. I went to the gym and just finished eating lunch. Now I'm going to get the grass cut and finish cleaning up from the party yesterday. I'm suppose to go out with one of my buddies to Philly tonite, but not sure if I'm really in the mood. We shall see.....