Live your life to the fullest and let her stew. They can't stand to see us happy...they want us to be as miserable as they are...do not fall into her web of deceit....live your life and have fun while doing so.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.