You have a gift of knowing what love is and you express it well in your songs. Have you ever sung or shown your W these songs?
Hi, Kerry. Thanks for the note. I've now shown my wife two of my songs, and she said "that was good; when did you write that?" and that was about it. I told her I wrote more, but she never asked to see them.
Yesterday, I was ripping a bunch of old CDs of mine to iTunes, and I came across a CD that I had made for my wife on our 14th wedding anniversary. It was a compilation of all of "our" songs, and I even labeled the CD and the jewel box with a nice label, and named it . . . um, well, "Our Songs" (original, huh??). Actually, it was "Our Songs: With Love to My Jersey Girl". When I give her things like these, she seems to appreciate them, and will always thank me, but she also seems kind of embarrassed by my effort. I used to do a lot more stuff like that, but I stopped doing it because it began to feel "pursuing" and because the effort was never reciprocated, even if in some other LL.
Over the years, my songs have been a way for me to express myself, TO myself mostly, and writing them has always been therapeutic. Some of them, I have a definite music line to them in my head, and others are just lyrics at this point.
I have no doubt she has feelings of shame and hopelessness when it comes to facing my family. Other than exchanging some e-mails with my mom and sending perfunctory holiday cards, and talking just a few times on the phone, she's never seen them since her affair. She says she can't.
Actually, it was "Our Songs: With Love to My Jersey Girl". When I give her things like these, she seems to appreciate them, and will always thank me, but she also seems kind of embarrassed by my effort. I used to do a lot more stuff like that, but I stopped doing it because it began to feel "pursuing" and because the effort was never reciprocated, even if in some other LL.