Renee, Depression works in mysterious ways...they do not think clearly and it's fight or flight and many of them will run away. I just recently had a high school classmate, diagnosed with severe depression hang himself....good job, lovely family, debt free, etc., but the one thing that threw him over the edge was laying people off at work. There is no rhyme or reason to their way of thinking when they are depressed. The only way out for most of them is to run, but running doesn't solve the problems. Some will understand this as they muddle through their day; others won't.
Your xh has admitted that he was 50% at fault for the failure of the marriage....that's something....most won't admit it. There may come a day when you'll have the opportunity to talk to him in a very rational manner about the walking away, but it's going to be a long time and you will need to follow his lead on that. For now, you need to keep a journal so that you have some place to keep your thoughts written down and refer back to it from time to time to see where you are in the healing department.
It's a holiday weekend....I do hope that you have planned some things to do w/your son and nephew. Your focus on your xh needs to start taking a back seat because your family needs your attention and you need to take care of yourself. Allow God to work on your xh and help him find the answers that he is searching for so that he can heal.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
