Well its been a couple days so i guess ill journal a little.


I didnt have any significant contact with my W/Ex whatever. So I gave her my weekly phone call to let her talk to the baby she didnt answer but called me back later. She was crying and upset because the baby wasnt there. She didnt ask me really but hinted that I should bring her home. I didnt give her any type of answer.

She was making up this story about how i said that we didnt need her and to just leave us alone, that i said all these horrible things to her. Which honestly i did not. I dont get it, she never calls, or asks for the little one, but thinks im going to just hand her back over after 6 months?

I mean my daughters well being is concern #1. She was such a mess when i picked her up the last time. We had potty training licked, which now i had to start all over. She was filthy, living on chicken nuggets and chips, running around in a diaper hair all wild.

Im afraid, because i feel that the court system is pitched towards children being with the mother, I just need to ride this out for another 30 days or so and the little one is a legal resident of another state.

It kills me because i really never wanted things to go this way, Ive lost contact with my stepkids who i love like my own, Wifey has turned into a pathalogical liar and a few other choice words i dare not say here, Im struggling to get a life and i need to come up with the jack for a plane ticket for my oldest daughter in about 30 days.

At least my youngest is very well taken care of, I cant imagine not having her. I want to be a parent and raise my child. She just wants to win, if that makes any sense.

I was supposed to grow up and be rich and happy lol


anyhow, hope you are all doing well. Keep your heads up and god
bless.

MLB

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.