he is back, i think

[mdoodles]

i just had to go today and see what where was. in all this time, i never once went to find him. it is no where near where we live, totally out of our element.

i have been through this enough, dropped the rope on numerous occasions to be sucked back in, opened the business to get him away from her and that area, he comes home and now this.

i get the dropping the rope, i have done it before. i have pulled back before.

but really, things will never ever change until he makes the change. until he addresses something is wrong.

we have been through this for over 2 1/2 years. he has come home and will most likely go again.

i need to force myself to move on. i guess seeing with my own eyes the area and people he is choosing is what needed to happen.

its completely crazy to me.