enjoy the alone! Dance around naked or in your underwear, you could bring a good book to the restaurant if eating alone, I always make friends with everyone wherever I go so I don't feel alone, or you could take your meal out to a park? I like being with people too, but I think everyone needs some alone time to relax, regenerate, be silly, or whatever.
BTW, I went through the emotional abuse too. I had someone telling me how horrible I was and criticizing me a lot, I loved them, and I believed them more and more. I think it happens gradually too, not just in one day, and so you get used to what you shouldn't be getting used to. Good to realize it and work on your self-confidence and strength so it doesn't happen again! Karen
