Yeah, I wish I was a millionaire, but that doesn't make me one.
You sound like me a little bit ago sometimes. I had depression issues too; who wouldn't with a critical WAS though! It sounds like you're doing all the right things. I had a lot of missteps way worse than yours--trust me--but yet I kept moving forward and I'm in a much better place than I was.
One thing that I do, which sounds cheesy, is instead of focusing on the negative; I do try to look at the positive. Yes, my H left me for an OW, but I'm closer to my kids, become a more confident, happier, independent person. It seems to me there's always good, sometimes quite a bit of good in a bad situation. For some reason it helps me to see things half full instead of half empty. Maybe something you could try?
Exercise is really good for dealing with stress & depression I think. I always try to exercise at least a couple times a week, even if you only have 10 or 20 minutes.
It sounds like you need to work on detaching more. I find that the less I see and focus on my WAH, the better I feel, the better my PMA. You should try to plan some GALing with your kids, GALing for just you, and try to improve yourself everyday just a little. Karen
