ok...I am up to date on your sitch! I am so happy for you and I can relate to your feelings as many here can. You are REALLY inspirational. What a good person and daddy you are! I can't help but think that you are feeling the way I am starting to...that if this terrible sitch did NOT happen in your life, that you would not be better off. That you are truly finding the person you have wanted to be all along. I feel compelled to give my H credit for that, but not quite yet! I am happy for you that you are doing better with your W. It is inspiring to read and it has given me patience to read your thread...what a long road. Patience is so important. Suffice it to say that time flies when you are having fun...so having fun is a goal of mine...everyday. The ride may just seem shorter that way. I would love to hear an update on the date...take care