mornings can suck at these times and I'm not sure why. But I recall my grief during H's MLC and my dad's death and I thank God it's spring now, and I live in a beautiful area of the country, as do you. So, forcing yourself outside is a good idea. Um -are you SURE you "SHOULD" drop mail off at H's? Why? Why see him at all? (Besides, Wait til after the highlights!)
Also, maybe journalling the ?'s helps you. But you're still making this about what is in his mind/heart and frankly, you will NEVER know the answers to your questions. I mean it, never. Nor will you ever truly understand. And even if you did, how on earth would that help you? Too much energy going that way. You think info would be good for you, but I don't think it is and besides, it is not attainable. He doesn't know exactly why he is doing this or what he feels. You don't have the same marital memories or yardsticks and you cannot. You also said LBSers, ie you, are "left to sort it all out" but we/you are not. Finances and kids stuff, yes we DO get to handle ALL of that but at least with the kids, we are also closer to them and you don't have to worry about someone taking your kids, which some people here do have as a major heartbreak added to their first one.
But You are not "left to sort it all out"....no, you are "left" to GAL...and to be the best mom you can be. Try really hard to remember that this is not about him. Not anymore. It is ALL ABOUT YOU AND WHAT YOU WANT AND LOVE TO DO WITH YOUR ONE LIFE...
((( j )))
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M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
