he is back, i think

[mdoodles]

its nice to have company in this lol.

i know that i have done absolutely everything i could have. there is no stone unturned, no approach not tried.

nothing i still needed to say, nothing i should have held back.

so is this where i "give up"

is this where i throw in the towel and say, i dont want him?

i dont know how to do it.

im truly hurt and upset, but not overwelmed like last year when he was looking to divorce me.

im stronger now, i have things in order, i know what to expect if this really goes down.

im on top of the money (or lack there of), i have a better understanding of the unknowns.

but i still dont want it.