My Lady, Happy Birthday!! I wish you that next year,on this day, you will be waking up in the arms of a hot, smart, arrogant, playful, sexy, horny (LOL) man (hmmm sounds like someone you know?) (yes Jeff, you fit the description also...) that will surprise you with a Diamond ring and a promise for evelasting love...
(to which you are supposed to reply with a "yes my love" and not DB him by going dark for the next few hours to show him your life is fine with or without him ). K
Thankyou for all the birthday messages! I have a really big smile on my face reading them. Lovely!! K- you're so funny
I had a bit of a wierd week in the end, but lots of celebration. Handsome- thankyou for the card! It was the first one I got so that was fab!
On Wednesday CEO and I went out for the evening with my BFF and a business collaborator who BFF works with. It was an odd evening- at the beginning it seemed like fun but by the end of the night I was in a really bad mood with him He was just teasing me all evening about everything, and it was OK at first but after 4 hours of it I was starting to loose perspective on why it was funny! Mainly he was going on and on about how I'd flirted with BFFs boss when we last saw her. I kind of thought he ought to let it go, and I told him that, but he wouldn't- he just kept on bringing it up. Grrr.
So, by the very end of the evening I was in a bad mood (my birthday reminds me of my biological clock ticking, which is really stressful) and he said he was tired and thinking of going. So I said 'OK, just go then'. He then decided to stay for another 20 minutes before saying again that he was thinking of going, so I again said that he should just go if he was tired. And then he did go.....
The next morning was my birthday. I woke up to lots of cards, which was really nice, and also had a few text messages. One card was from H, so he did remember. Inside he'd written a message that almost exactly mirrored the message I'd written in his birthday card. I was a bit disappointed by it- some originality would have been nice rather than just copying my message exactly. He also texted me later saying Happy Birthday and we should meet up. I replied with a friendly text saying yes, definitely and then got....nothing! I must have scared him into his cave. Something's changed with H- I can't tell what it is, but he seems to be cycling at poking his head out of the cave briefly and then withdrawing again almost immediately. Maybe he's in the withdrawal stage of his MLC now. I wonder but don't think there's any way of finding out for sure.
I didn't hear from CEO until mid-morning. 2 missed calls and then I got a terse text message....
CEO: I tried to call but you seem to be ignoring me. Anyway, Happy Birthday. Have a lovely day. CEO Me: Thankyou! I'm sorry I missed your call...I was in the shower but that's really sweet of you to remember and it makes up for me not getting to see you today. L. CEO: In that case maybe I can invite you to lunch if you're free today.....
So we met at his house (it's almost finished now and it's absolutely stunning) and he showed me around. Gosh, I really love that house, it's like being in a historical drama. Then we went out to Old Spitalfields Market and looked around the antiques market for a bit. One stall had an array of pickled biological specimens which I thought were really interesting. What CEO thought was interesting was that in among the jars of specimens were 70s porn magazines. We looked at those a bit. How odd to be standing at a market stall looking at, and laughing about, porn with your boss.
At lunch we talked about why I'd been in a bad mood the night before. He said he'd really felt unwanted and unwelcome when I said he should go. I felt terrible because I didn't want him to go- I was just teasing him. I apologised but still felt bad about it afterwards. We also talked about how he thinks I'm sensitive, and about whether my family had remembered my birthday (they tend to forget). When I told him that he said 'well, I called you and texted you and now I'm taking you out. Isn't this a nice birthday present?'. At the end of lunch he was watching me eat and looking so intense. It was really difficult to actually eat properly in the face of it. I kept looking up and seeing him just watching me.
After lunch we went back to his house, made tea and sat in his garden for an hour or so talking to each other and the builders (who were installing his pond). It was nice- really comfortable to be there.
It was a bit awkward saying goodbye when I left. I thought maybe I should give him a kiss (on the cheek) to say thankyou for the lunch/shopping, but I didn't. He's a bit tall for me to reach without him bending down a little, and, I don't know, it just didn't seem like the time was right. Maybe I should have tried... In the end he just said that he wouldn't see me until next Thursday and would I be OK without him. I said no, and that I'd be pining the whole week and he laughed.
Birthday evening was some drinks with friends, and then a late night chat with Austin, and then yesterday I went out with one of my former colleagues (Cockney guy) for a few drinks. That was also really good fun. At one point he started talking to me about the aubergine (he and some of his friends know her) and he was saying that they can't really understand why H would have left me for her, as he always seemed so normal and she's a psycho with serious issues as well as being highly manipulative. Interesting- I always knew she was probably the typical aubergine type OW. Ha!
Today my liver is recovering from the battering it's taken this week. My new kitchen units have just arrived (so exciting) but there are a few extras that I have to return. I think I'm also going to go shopping for worktops later on. The work is starting next week. Yay!
I'm kind of thinking that I need to break the deadlock at work somehow. There's a job I could apply for that I saw advertised but I feel a bit bad doing it- firstly it would leave the company in difficulty as we're doing some negotiations at the mement that are pretty sensitive, and secondly I'd lose my share options (which if the deal comes off would let me repay the mortgage). On the other hand the emotional rollercoaster of arguing and making up with CEO is really difficult. So I'm thinking about what to do this weekend.
((((all))) going to come and visit you all now.
L. xx
PS. Beth, T, naej and Mishka- hello! And Michelle- thanks for logging on and visiting from your hotel. K- I promise that if a diamond ring were to appear (from either one of those potential suitors ) I would accept and not DB at all.
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He was just teasing me all evening about everything, and it was OK at first but after 4 hours of it I was starting to loose perspective on why it was funny! Mainly he was going on and on about how I'd flirted with BFFs boss when we last saw her. I kind of thought he ought to let it go, and I told him that, but he wouldn't- he just kept on bringing it up. Grrr.
) I would accept and not DB at all.