I have to tell you, that with a heart such as yours, you are not only destined to be loved but that you will be just fine no matter the outcome... even if your hub never returns.
Remember this cuz you seem to beleive in God very much and have turned to him... God might know whats better for you, in the long term, than you do. He might have other plans for you. He might know your loving heart needs to be protected, right now, and be standing in your way as such, but for a good reason.
My own left me 3 years ago this sept, and its the same thing, only partner only marriage, and of course I miss him deeply despite all the horrible things he did. but i also know, that the fact he NEVER returned and NEVER said another word to me or my kids, might be the work of GOD. GOD protects his children, even if it might seem hurtful to you. you have to have faith that one day, you might be happier and better off.
I spent a lot of time praying for the return of my own hub, only to realise I had prayed all my life for protection and maybe, God WAS protecting me. I might not like it or want it but it may be protection all the same. Sometimes, people change so drastically they are no longer who we knew. it is sad and so horrible but it happens; and the LORD might know whats right for you and even though he hears your prayers, has to harden his heart, SO THAT you are protected...
no one predicts a MLC. myself, I might have predicted it or even a breakup or a OW, but I would have laughed in your face if you'd suggested he'd abandon his kids. I would NEVER HAVE BELEIVED IT and would have sworn NO. not possible. but it happened. people change and sometimes for the worse. sometimes you have to accept the changes, and realise the person you once knew, is dead now. the new person in their body, isnt who you knew. its someone else and they dont know you. or deserve you...
love an blessings... xoxoxo
When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.
