its just so hard because this time its real. its really real.

and it will get ugly.

i live next door to my in laws and i babysit my brother in laws son.

i just dont want to go through this.

i had a taste of it last year and i never wanted to be in this position ever again.

and here i am.

me: 31
H:29
Son:5
m:8 years in november
t:10 years
first bomb: 10/06
moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08
ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06
d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08
moved home:3/09 out again 5/09