Wow, been awhile since I've posted. Things with work have been pretty crazy the last couple of weeks. Unrealistic deadlines, little to no management support, geographically dispersed teams, the usual. I feel like my life the last two weeks has just been a constant of work, gym, spending time with D3. So glad for a 3 day weekend to unwind and just relax some. I did manage to get out with friends a couple of times but didn't do too much other than hang out to talk since I was drained. Going to try to go play some volleyball this weekend since it should be nice and I've been itching to play. Things with W are still in I guess the same place. We are still living in the same house but in separate rooms like roommates. It was kinda weird the first week but seems to be getting better. We don't see or talk to each other much as I am giving her all the space she needs and wait for her to initiate anything unless it concerns D3. We did talk a little a couple of days ago and she brought up the R and said she was thinking about seeing the mediator and starting the divorce process. Kinda a weird conversation actually. She started off with that. I asked why the sudden push for that and she said that she doesn't know what she wants and that she wants to love me but the more she wants it the more she pulls away from it. I told her if she wanted to start the process then I wouldn't stand in her way. We could go anytime and that I was willing to do a 50/50 custody split with D3 and I would pay her so much $$$ for 2 years (half of the time we've been married...that's what she would be entitled to). So she sat there for awhile and then started tearing up and said...don't you think that's moving fast. I really had no response for that so i just let it go. Since then she hasn't brought it up nor talked about it. Yesterday she was supposed to have D3 and tonight I was. She sent me a text last night about 30 mins before she was supposed to come home and asked if I would hate her if she wanted to stay out. I said hate is such a strong word and told her I had plans and asked if she was asking me to change them so she could go out. She responded with maybe. So I asked back....well, do you or don't you. She said yes so I called up a friend of mine who I was going to go watch the Laker game with and asked if we could hang out tonight. He said it would be better for him if we moved it and it would actually be better for me too since I needed to get some work done so we moved it to tonight. I sent W a text back saying that I had moved my plans to tonight and it was all good. She replied back with thanks and you know you kinda rock. I just sent one back saying I know and have a good night. That about covers the sitch for now. Tonight should be fun because I don't have to worry about getting up for work tomorrow so I can let loose a little more. I wish I knew what the whole start a conversation with divorce and then when I don't try to stop it but provide feedback on what we could do I'm moving too fast thing is but I'm not going to dwell on that anymore and just keep doing what I'm doing, giving her space, and having fun. W starts her new job tomorrow so I'm sure some of that is stressing her out so that could be affecting her mood and thoughts some....who knows. Anyway, hope everyone has a great memorial day weekend.
Oh...25yr...I went and read what you wrote and get what you are saying. I would love for you to read back through my sitch and give me some of your opinions/advice.
