Did anyone go through this?

[dday101798]

Despite ALL this, I still have feelings for H. And I'm hoping for everything to somehow get better... And when I remember what he did to me, I hate myself and I even feel embarrased that I still do have feelings for him!!!!!!!!!!!

didn't get locked out by the doorman, but....

left for someone else directly in front of our children,
purposely beat upoon emotioanlly,
made the laughing stock of town,
constantly had the police called on me (neumorous times and all for lies),
physically assaulted after I refused to play in any more emotioanl games,
Divorce filed upon when protecting my self and our children,
Access to the children stripped away,
Gave up the house and all my belongings there in,

And yet, yes, I still love the woman.