he is back, i think

[mdoodles]

thank you vicky. thank you. i appreciate it all.

i am definitely stepping back, i happen to think this is all normal for the situation, however, he is not mature enough to realize this and understand it.

im going to operate as business as usual. i will not force him out or tell him to leave, i will make it like any other night.

i will do the laundry and put it away like i do.

i will go to the store like i would normally do.

and i will see this week. if he moves forward on his end, i think then i will have to accept it is over.

as much as i want to wait for him, im losing my life in the process.

i dont regret the waiting for him, i dont regret this past year where we stopped the divorce process.

but i cannot keep my life on hold. i want more kids, i want a husband that loves me and appreciates me.

i want it to be him. but maybe it just cant be.

if its not going to be him, i need to move on and meet someone else and get on with my life with my son.

i dont want to, but i think i have to push myself.