It has taken me a lot of "Thinking", a ton of emotional pain, lots of IC and a small mountain of self-help books to really understand this. I know who that little boy is and where the feelings of inadequacy and fear of rejection come from - and frankly they are all bullsh*t . They may have made sense at the time -- I was a 4-year old with a missing father and an emotionally withdrawn mother and whose leg brace kept him from keeping up with the other kids on the playground -- but they are completely irrelevant today!
That's not me any more!
I know that now!
But the gut level emotional reactions still show up, and these are the emotions that are preventing me from really enjoying my life. To paraphrase Coach, they are preventing me from being the best man that I can be.
And that's the WORK that I need to do. And that's the work I am doing.
Believe me, it's not easy.
I can relate Thinker. One thing that helped me grow was to love myself. I realised and realise that I matter. Sounds kinda simple but it was big for me. You are responsible for your happiness. Understanding your emotions helps you think thru them and then attacking your negative beliefs about yourself. Good for you taking on those snakes. You are handling it. Cheers Coach
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
