the worst thing is i cant stop myself from texting him and letting him have it.

today the divorce busting is out the window. i need to stick up for myself, and be heard.

ive decided nothing i do or dont do matters anyway.

my husband needs his own help, he needs to find his happiness within himself. and he may never do that.

me: 31
H:29
Son:5
m:8 years in november
t:10 years
first bomb: 10/06
moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08
ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06
d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08
moved home:3/09 out again 5/09