Had a very interesting conversation with my cousin last night. I learned a lot of things that had happened in my family and was kept out sight of kids (when I was one) that I truly can't believe half of it.
She also pulled me out of my corner at the same time I realized I was heading in a very dark direction. And that although I did ream my mother rather hard, it needed to be done, it's been buried way too long. And that my assumption is correct and no-one in my family "hates" W as she so thinks, but yet they are very hurt and confused by her actions with OM especially where the kids are concerned. Seems that infidelity is no stranger to my family, but for the sake of the kids, no-one, other than my "parents" tore their family apart over it and worked very hard to repair the damamges, even if it took years.
I alwasy thought my family was so tight knit with no secrets like that, we ahd a lot of bad laundry out in the open on other issues, but never would I had figured that almost everyone has had to deal with this at some point in life.
In hindsight also, I opened myself to W during our conversation way more than I should. But, the way I see it now, the clock is ticking and there can't be any harm in being open to her my feelings still exist. My cousin regards as it's time for W to 'piss or get off the pot', not a anology I care for, but I'm fresh out and that she either needs to start undoing damamge now or forever hold her piece, but it is definately not my responsibility to sit around and wallow over her anymore.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
