You must reach a point of acceptance that you will probably never know why he did what he did.
How does one reach that point? It's different for all of us.
I don't feel that he abandoned them because they have "too much of you." They have just as much of him as well.
He did it because he has issues, somewhere inside of that mess of a mind, there is still love there. If I had to guess, it is burried down deep. Pain, confusion, and extreme guilt most likely cover it, however where ever you go there you are.
He may run for the rest of his life and be miserable, he may somehow find the courage to face his demons or the demons may eventually hunt him down. Who knows??
All we can do is live for ourselves and children and focus on the gift that is today and pray we have another gift called tomorrow.
