I've been studying emotional abuse. And what an eye opener. Every characteristic named is what I've been enduring. Why do women (I) put up with this? Why is it so hard to see it while you're in the middle of it? Denial? Thinking it may just be in your mind? No way, he couldn't be doing this? And the fact is HE IS DOING IT! Now it is time to step away, start the healing process, build up self esteem and self worth again, and now that you know what the lion in sheep's clothing looks like, be very perceptive of what is being said, what is being demanded and what the other's expectations are. Life is a learning experience. I am amazed at the vile and disgusting way I have allowed him to speak to me. Never, ever in my life time was I ever talked to like that and I can't imagine why I would allow it this time? What happened to me? Why did I allow it? Was I way too vulnerable? Way to needy? Wanting a R at all cost even if I had to compromise my dignity? This is how I've been living, but no more. God give me the strength to keep my eyes on You and for You to supply my needs and for You to keep away from this abuse and for you to help me put a stop to this self imposed abuse.
