I was referring to when he said you had done nothing wrong and he didn't blame you for anything; hard to believe he doesn't have a single complaint. However, the point was that words are just words and he could say a whole range of things that are even contradictory. Actions, it is all about actions, us and them.
I am in no place to tell you what to do but what why don't you consider just taking this trip to see mom, breathe and look at what your options are. I'm not sure why if you "love" where you live, you need to go right away. Or, did you mention your lease being up? Not sure. Crazy thing is, this is YOUR life and YOUR time, you can do what you want to do. Intimidating right? But, time to grow up and make those choices. If you can take your time, I would, just to not run with your pants on fire.
Yes, you will see things about him that highlight more of what wasn't working for you in M. At some point, you'll need to look at you and what you want to work on. Right now, I think loving yourself and GAL are the way to do. I am actually trying to stop my introspection/analysis and start living a with a little LESS thinking.
