It has been 3 weeks since H and I separated

[ALJ]

My H left 3 weeks ago and now lives 14 hours away. It seems like it is going to be hard to use the DB tecniques with so much distance between us. I am basically trying to get through each day without thinking about him constantly. I have my 3 girls and you would think they would keep me busy enough but my mind is still reliving the day he dropped the bomb and the time leading up to his departure.

Seems like everywhere I look, there is a couple holding hands or sitting with their arms around each other. They seem to be oozing with love and emotion. Then I find myself getting sad, wishing it were my H and I instead. I have been trying to GAL but somehow it seems like I am faking, trying to make these feelings of despair go away. I did join the gym today so we will see how that goes. My H will be back to visit in 3 weeks and I do want to look a lot better than when he saw me last time.