What were you referring to when you said I was believing what he was saying? The part about him not wanting to "close any doors"??
Yes...I realize that even if he did come back tomorrow (which is CLEARLY not going to happen) I would actually question if he was ready. I would be skeptical. I feel myself entering a new stage. One in which the things that did bother me in the R are coming back into light since they are all of the things that were clouded by my pain. For example. Tonight I heard him yell at one of my kids the way he always does and it made me cringe. He has been "good guy" since this all happened...so the reality of the way he yells sometimes made me feel better that he was about to leave again!! I will go up North to my Mom's tomorrow and try to find a place over the weekend. The thing is...I really love where I live and don't wanna move. UGH!
