I think that your obsessiveness and your outlook indicates that you probably need some kind of medication, at least temporarily. I think you should just focus on that and IC right now. You prob. couldn't have a happy relationship with anyone right now. I may seem unkind in that, but I was there myself in a spot like yours a year or 2 ago. You can do this; you can make changes, but you have to make an appt. with a doctor and C, go, be honest, and willing to work. Karen
