Aside from the keeping busy, I think everyone is pressing for you to talk to a C or T to help your self-esteem issues.

Maybe at the very least if you started reading some self-help books about self-esteem that might get you started.

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Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

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