It's funny you post that because it's what I've been thinking about most of the day.
One of the first times we did MC she said something(I don't remember what it was) but I remember saying I don't know how you want me to act...WOW...How YOU want ME to act...
It took me MONTHS and MONTHS to decide I don't care (not in a bad way0 how she wants me to act, I'm not going to act, I'm going to be ME. Since that day I have, I've been me. Most of the time it's been a happy fun person but just like anyone else I have my days were I'm pi$$ed off or something. I'm NOT going to act in front of her, I'm not going to take it out on her either but she needs to know THIS IS ME take it or leave it.
So tonight tball game went as I expected she was a little/lot less interactive than last night. One thing she did that I don't like but she has no idea, she wore the three stone diamond ring I got her for our 10yr anniversary. She doesn't wear it very often at all, at least around me and I really don't like to see it on her.
I probably wasn't the funniest person tonight either since I got a call from my boss that one of the owners of our company wants to have a conf call tonight at 10pm...Got the call at tball so the W knows that's why my mood went from happy to a little po'd. Like I said though I'm not going to hide things like that because IF we do get back together I want her to know I have more emotions and feelings other than happy...and one thing I don't do is act depressed or defeated in front of her because I'm NOT.
Me:40 W: 39 T: 17 years M: 15 years S-9 D-6 D final 11/10/2009
"We are all faced with a series of great opportunities brilliantly disguised as insoluble problems."