Trying to detach from the madness!

[kassie]

Well, don't know what I am doing this weekend either. My kids often go out now and so if you want to chat - I will be around. Hope you can use the time to relax.

Tommorrow I am signing papers to refinance the house so I can afford it on my own without H and without CS and D has her formal at night. H is doing his own stuff tommorrow.

I posted that I have moved over to wah4 - started it just in case the other locked. V has started over there already - do whatever.

[kassie]

Can I cut in for just a minute and tell "blindsided" how unfair she is being treated and how much I wish things could be different.

[blindsided1]

Thanks for the shout-out Kassie. I spent a long time whining about how unfair it all was and too little time doing something to change it. Now I am. It still hurts....sad thing is that it hurts because I know that having DCSS get my CS from H is going to hurt him...financially. Sad that I still hurt because he will hurt. But, I know that I have wasted 11 months waiting for H to be a stand-up guy. Nothing I do is going to accomplish that. He is who he is and unless he wants to be something different or it stops working for him...he'll always be this man. I mean, you've read my thread....does he seem like he has changed at all...not for the better, at least.

[Startingover2]

No your H hasn't changed and neither has mine. I get anxious when I have to challenge exh on anything. His anger and the what is he going to do now that he is mad scares me to death. I guess we just have to find that manageable place with them.

Good for you Kass on the refi. When I bought my home after my first D I felt so independent. Thankfully I never put exh on title. Man, that would have been a disaster.

He sent some texts a few minutes ago asking how baby was and what I have been up to. I was short and to the point with the responses. He asked if I wasn't talkative or was it him? Oh, how I would have love to say it was him, but I said I was right in the middle of something and would talk to him later. I know that fries his cookies to be ignored.

Figures some friends from high school are getting together this weekend and my kids are out of town. So is my sister and my mom is too old and baby would run her ragged. Those are the only people I would feel comfortable watching her. Oh well. I have lots of yard work to do. May hit Costco. Baby loves the pool so maybe we will spend some time in there.

[volleydog]

SO2 and you also blindsided(I've followed your thread also) every time I hear this song I really think of both of you...PLEASE don't take offense but I THINK it may be a good attitude for both, you both are SO strong I admire you...Sorry if you hate country music but it may be worth a listen...


Well, you filled up my head with so many lies.
You twisted my heart till somethin' snapped inside.
I'd like to give it one more try,
But my give-a-damn's busted.

You can crawl back home, say you were wrong;
Stand out in the yard and cry all night long.
Well, go ahead and water the lawn:
My give-a-damn's busted.

I really wanna care.
I wanna feel somethin'.
Let me dig a little deeper:.
No, sorry: nothin'.

You can say you've got issues, you can say you're a victim.
It's all your parents fault,I mean after all you didn't pick 'em.
Maybe somebody else has got time to listen:
My give-a-damn's busted.

Well, your therapist says it was all a mistake:
A product of the Prozac and your co-dependent ways.
So who's your enabler these days?
My give-a-damn's busted.

I really wanna care.
I wanna feel somethin'.
Let me dig a little deeper:.
No, still nothin'.

It's a desperate situation, no tellin' what you'll do.
If I don't forgive you, you say your life is through.
C'mon, gimme somethin' I can use:
My give-a-damn's busted.

Well, I really wanna care.
I wanna feel somethin'.
Let me dig a little deeper:
No, Man sorry.
Just nothin', you know.
You've really done it this time, ha, ha.
My give-a-damn's busted.

[Startingover2]

Volley: I love that song and have heard it so many times but never really listened to the words until now. I may have to make that my new ringtone. I also love the new Kelly Pickler "Best Days of Your Life". So funny!!

[volleydog]

LOL well at least I wasn't way off. At least I'm not the only country fan out there, oh course there are fans that won't admit to it.

I hate to say it but I like that Kelly Pickler song also...Not a very "manly" song. Of course I LOVE Honky Tonk Badonkadonk, had to throw that in there...:)

[Startingover2]

LOL well at least I wasn't way off. At least I'm not the only country fan out there, oh course there are fans that won't admit to it.

I hate to say it but I like that Kelly Pickler song also...Not a very "manly" song. Of course I LOVE Honky Tonk Badonkadonk, had to throw that in there...:)

LOL no its not a very manly song! So funny!

[blindsided1]

Great lyrics Volley...I am not a Country fan, but I would listen to the song just for the lyrics. Who sings it?

It really does represent exactly how I am feeling these days.

[Startingover2]

Exh gives me so much anxiety. I get a sick feeling when I see him.

I just went out to lunch with my sister and my oldest D. I look up and there is exh at the bank. He doesn't see us but I just watched him from the window. I felt a pit in my stomach and it sure wasn't butterflies! Nervous, anxious, and fear. Wasn't a good feeling at all.

Strange thing was he said his cs would be late due to him not working. He was working today!