I had the opportunity to speak to my xh today. The conversation lasted ever bit of 2 min or so. It was about my vehicle that is on a loan he pays. I am having some problems with vehicle. We also spoke about our sons birthday coming up soon. He was nice and answered all my questions. Not overly nice, just not hateful. I could tell he wanted to get off the phone quickly. I could tell he didnt mind speaking to me but only briefly. He started to get angry *at himself* during the end of the conversation. I say this because its the same pattern he had after we would be intimate at the beginning of this. He even told me once. He wants to speak to me then gets mad at himself for talking with me. I feel this is why he wants to make the conversation quick. I said my thank you and hung up. I stuck strictly to the point. When he hung up he didnt even say bye, but thats ok. I can tell you from talking to him, he is still fighting something. He is struggling within himself. He is happy with gf, but still wants to communicate with me, but he is fighing it. It is a gut feeling I have, and I dont think I am wrong. I know him. I will not speak to him again for a couple months, but I do feel I need to keep in touch just a little. I want to win back his trust, I think he will need me in the future. I do still love him very much at this point. I am praying and I believe GOD is gonna move in my situation. IRMAC please keep us in your prayers as I will you. GOD is GREAT! and I think GOD for seeing a little bit of my h in him today.
