Anyone went through this? How do you deal with such mixed emotions of anger and pain mixed with an enormous feelings of love and longing for what we once had???
I think this is normal--I think a lot of LBS feel a mix of emotions. I know I do.
As to how to deal with it? I find that just letting myself mourn for the relationship along side a genuine commitment to moving on works for me. Just yesterday I "had a sad" and just cried over the loss of my X, for a bit. Then I went for a walk, and got to work on MY life. I don't let myself be completely depressed anymore, OR completely bury any feelings of sadness.
Let the things he did that anger you motivate you to detach and get on with your life. And let the love for him help you mourn and eventually...heal.
It is in the shelter of each other that people live.--Irish proverb