I think that is an excellent attitude for you to have Future. Its so hard to get to that point, where you just throw up your hands and say "Fine". But, again thats where a lot of these things turn around. Who knows what will happen for her, but right now you just need to worry about what will happen for you and your kids. I think that you taught them a valuable lesson about the importance of M and family by trying as hard as you have. So maybe something good will have come out of all of this.

I made a playlist for my Ipod right about this stage in my sitch, it was all songs that told me things were going to be ok. Maybe it would help?

I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...