Game Over?

[dday101798]

Just spent an hour on the phone with W.

She was very flattered that I told my mother not to bash her. She questioned why my family "hates her". I conveyed, they don't, and I don't. Problem is how you went about with OM. She sounded as she almost pulled a tear or two.

Me, I'm ballin gmy head off.

AS I sit here at my somputer desk, surronded by piles of court paperwork and how it will all end has killed me emotionally and I told her that. She says she doesn't want this either, what is that supposed to mean? We both really want our friendship back and she says she wants to be here for holidays. How? Do I have to reduce myself to crying in the bathroom ever half hour as she sits there with him?

i struk a chord when I told her that I don't neccessarily get underminded anymore about them, just the reality of being a "part-time parent". She broke down and said I don't wnat you to be. AGain, how?

I commented on how nice it was last thursday that we went through the conversation of everything and didn't argue, she said that was nice.

And here I sit, getting probably another sense of false hope, but it feels so welcome.