Magnificent

[mishka422]

OMG!!!!! I swear, I need to stop being nice. I just don't enjoy being b*tchy either. No idea how to keep Gabe from clinging to me for emotional support.

I had sent Gabe a text this morning about a job I heard was open. That's it. Nothing more. He called me to ask about it and I told him all I knew and asked about our nephew. That was it.......I guess the kindness was just too much for his fragile self. He texted me about 20 minutes after we hung up to ask if I was going to lunch. Told him I have to pick my mom up (dialysis). He said that he could pick her up since he's not busy and I told him I appreciated the offer but I had to go home to take care of some things anyway. He told me to just go home and he'd pick her up since he was right over by the hospital anyway. I relented and accepted. His next texts were where I think my kindness toward him opened up too much:

G-Have I ever told you that I hate most of my life? I just can't get a break
M-Now stop that. Has something else happened or is it the frustration talking?
G-It's everything baby. My life sucks.
M-I understand. Only you can change it. Start with a positive outlook. It's the power of positive thinking.

Yeah, probably shouldn't have responded, huh? Should have let him stew in his own misery.

I get the feeling that he and the broom must be fighting (which is really bad to him because he hates confrontation). Along with being out of work and no prospects on the horizon he's feeling pretty worthless. I know.....NOT MY PROBLEM. I just find it impossible to kick a dog when it's down.

I'm leaving right now to go home for lunch and take care of the things I needed to do. I know Gabe will be there waiting....don't know why that makes me nervous.