When this locks I will move to Surviving. Time to move on...
Although I do have one question. Not that it matters. But
is there a difference between
"I don't want to....." (forgive you, build a life with you, etc)
and
"I don't know how to...."
Because, for example, take losing weight. I might say, "I want to lose weight, but I don't know how." So then if I really wanted to, I would seek out a dietician, read a book, find someone who DOES know how to lose weight and ask them to help me.
But if I said, "I don't want to lose weight", then I would do nothing to try, which makes sense, b/c I said "I don't want to."
Anyway just reflecting on something H said. That "he didn't know how to forgive and move on. He couldn't forgive himself for how he treated me and couldn't find a spark to re-ignite us"
I just told him there was a big difference between not knowing how, and not wanting to. That in the case of the former, if you wanted to, you made the effort to find someone/something to show you how. (Pastor, counselor, book, whatever) In the latter, so be it. It's done.
He only said the former but I am treating it like the latter. We are getting together tonight to set up the schedule with the kids. And it will be strictly business on my end.
