Yeah, I am ANGRY today...and it feels a whole lot better than depressed. My mantra for today is "YOU ARE THE ONE LOSING A-HOLE!!!!!" And it is not hard to convince myself of because it is true. He is losing (he being BOTH our men) a loving wife and beautiful kids...a family. I am losing an idiot. A self-serving, narcissit fool. Seriously. I have to believe it is only a matter of time before that hits him HARD. That the grrener pastures are going to turn brown over time an that when that happens, my green growth will surpass my delusions of love where he is concerned. I will nurture me...and I will be the lucky one. Unbelievable. Did I mention coward???? Who doesn't give 100% when it comes to the risk of losing such prescious relationships with those who love you??? IT helps to think this way...it's real.
