A new thread, a new outlook.....

[Can it work]

Hey folks,

Just popped on for a quick update. I've been flat out busy doing my spring cleaning around the house so haven't had time to get on here as much as I'd have liked over the last few days.

Well, I've taken down all my wedding photos and replaced them with pictures of Wee Man. I must admit that it's a horrible feeling taking down the wedding pictures. It feels like I'm giving up even though I know that I'm not. Hopefully my W will come past sometime soon and notice. Then I hope she actually cares. That's the big test. I'm fairly sure she won't say anything but it's something I believe might help her thing I've detached. The one thing I'm not looking forward to with it though is my IL's seeing that I've taken them down. They still have our wedding photos on display in their house which tells me that they're still supportive of our M. I don't dare tell them the reason I've taken them down but I think it may also make them think that I've moved on. Still, that in itself may help matters a bit. Fingers crossed anyway.

My W's uncle came past for a quick visit and a beer the other night. It's his daughter who just had the wee girl. I said nothing about my M but he brought up that he doesn't think I should completely close the door on that chapter of my life yet. It was good to hear. He also joked that he'd also heard rumours that I was seeing someone else. I told him that I wasn't and that I found the whole thing quite amusing. It's amazing how quickly gossip spreads in such a small community! I know I'm still staying faithful to my vows and that's the most important thing. Guess I'm going to find out how powerful jealousy really is. That's assuming my W feels even slightly jealous about the idea that I may be seeing someone. I never said it before on here but last week my W asked me if I saw much of the girl in question. I just told her that I see her every now and again when we go out because we have mutual friends. This is before I realised there was a rumour going around about me. It may have been a probing question but I don't know. It may just as easily have been my W making conversation. I find it hard to tell with her these days.

I went to visit my W's cousin and the new baby in the hospital yesterday. She's gorgeous! I brought a nice personalised card I got off the internet and a nice gift. The happy parents seemed over the moon with both. They then asked me to come visit sometime when she gets out of hospital. I said I definitely would. The father also asked if I'd come out this weekend to wet the baby's head. I don't know if that's a tradition anywhere else but it basically means the father taking out all the guys close to him to celebrate the birth in the way that guys do best. With copious quantities of alcohol and general drunken behaviour! I unfortunately had to decline because I have Wee Man this weekend. They then told me that there'd be another night sometime soon so those who can't make this weekend can come. I told them I'd definitely be up for that. It still feels good that my W's family include me in things like this.

I'll be seeing my W this afternoon when I take Wee Man back to her. I'm not going to ask her any questions about how she's getting on though. I need to get back to a bit of darkness because I think it may have looked as though I've been pursuing lately. Let her pursue again for a bit. I need to get some control back in my sitch.

Kev