<< This love I have for him is what I based all my hopes on for a "happily ever after". It's the deep kind of love that people share for family. And I was/am willing to build on it. But he seems to want just that. And "THAT" isnt enough for me. Maybe if I were 65-70, it would be. I am 38 and I need more. Isn't what you are saying the same as ILYBINILWY?
Yes I guess so. So? What's wrong with that? After 2 years I am saying that I am not in love with him BUT I REALISE that with work and commitement we could make it and bring at least some of the passion back. What's your objection with that? I am honest I am not in love with him, but I dont LEAVE fb2. You seem to forget that I am still here giving HIM all the chances of the world to straighten up his head and work with me. Am I IN love with him? How could I possible be in love with him? .
And what's the definition of "love", what you want or what he wants? I also think John's question begs an answer.
I thought I answered his question. No? He asked if I love my H. What did I miss? I am not trying to define love. It's all very subjective anyway since we are talking about a feeling. I need to feel loved. My LL should be used for once by H otherwise....nothing.
He came around 2 in the morning. I smelled good, was wearing a nice, not sexy cami with boy shorts I bought last week, I was calm and offered him dinner (didnt know if he had eaten already). He took his clothes off and came to bed. No talks so late or anything. This morning he got up and saw me dressed leaving and I went over and kissed him lightly to say good bye.
I am ok. I was walking to my car thinking that it will be a shame if we give up because it takes a long time to feel so familiar with someone and know his expressions, his taste, his background, his different laughs, the looks and what they mean...
It is also a waste to feel like life is passing you by. M
