Ive been thinking a lot about forgiveness too I am not there yet and believe it will be an act of gods grace only, if I can forgive XH Im still very hurt at times by all of this i still get waves of anger and high waves of it recently it seems to take such a long time to work through the pain i thought I was done, but my XBF was obviously just a distraction..I still have to resolve this R with XH before I can move on in another R and IM not ready
I feel sad for the kids too I hope they will be OK im so grateful for all the blessings in my life, but it is hard to not have any real reliable family or help with my kids XH is very unreliable, withdrawn and easy to explode at any moment peace
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow D ow
